Clark, Jillian

fetal pig worksheet

1. in biology i did not hold a fetal pig
2. or cut it open with a knife
3. instead i got a worksheet and said “okay”
4. i walked to the library
5. when someone is giving me constructive criticism
6. i try not to nod my head or say “yeah” too much
7. because this seems defensive
8. i googled fetal pig dissection
9. i looked at the pictures of the organs
10. they had numbers
11. i could not tell where the arrows were pointing
12. and this reminded me of my whole life
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14. when people ask why i did not want to cut open the pig
15. and stare at its organs
16. i say “i have been a vegetarian for almost ten years”
17. or “i’m squeamish”
18. i say “it’s just a personal thing, just like how i don’t like eating eggs”
19. saying “it’s not political, it’s personal”
20. makes me a #1 vegetarian assface
21. a girl came over to me with her pig worksheet
22. she said “i’m a vegetarian from now on”
23. i said “yes”
24. i looked at pictures of the pig in the library
25. it was a little blue in the library
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27. there were brick walls
28. and i wanted to talk to someone about abraham maslow
29. in a library people are calmer and generally nicer
30. like when ordering food at waffle house; it is somewhere
31. you have never been but have heard that it is both beautiful
32. and disgusting; that flies get into the waffle batter
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34. because you sit right at the counter
35. and it is the type of restaurant where you can see
36. things happening; that once my mom cried
37. in a thai restaurant when she heard someone’s iphone
38. ring a duck noise; because she thought a duck was crying
39. in the kitchen
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41. that in a forest in japan lots of people kill themselves
42. because they are depressed, abused, in debt, lonely, rich, or bored
43. that maybe some people do it just because other people have
44. that if everyone programmed their iphone to ring
45. a duck ringtone simultaneously
46. my mom would laugh in a thai restaurant